Nothing I can say here that hasn't already been said.
I'm autistic and so I sometimes struggle with nuances... like I can have some idea of what is going on but not enough to be clear and explain it to others. So what you do that I love is explain it all so I know exactly what is going on and if Jarod or Parker or another character crosses a line and commits a crime.
I love what you write and I love the way you write and how plausible your stories/novels are always and I love how everything is clear like I know that Parker sort of lied in this because she didn't want to confess to Jarod she'd killed someone. It was subtle but even I caught that and I love that.
You do this really well and transition perfectly and the characters... yeah they are the characters like always just like they are on my DVDs. You know how to write and where to put everyone and what they should all say. This is a natural easy gift and talent and you are skillful. I love this story.
While I'm here I want to ask you a question about another story on here that I love that you didn't write though. If that's okay? I asked the author, have emailed the author and reviewed but still have no response. I was hoping you could shed some kind of light for me so I can understand. So if you read Winter's Thaw by Bucky LaFontaine can you tell me what is going on when Jarod says they were playing with sensory overload and then Parker snapped? Just read it if you don't mind and begin with "I was so nearly blind with want, need and desire" and end at "literally caught with your pants down and in pain" if you don't mind and help me understand it. It really bugs me when I don't know what is going on.
Please update this soon and please please update Devil's Advocate and the others. I miss you when you're gone. Stay forever please.
Author's Response:
Thank you for all the kind words.
On to your conundrum: Nice; I just read it; it's a damn find read. I think authors sometimes want to leave certain elements of the story to the reader's interpretation (and I am terrified of fansplaining their fics). But I'm sympathetic and you are pleading, and--- fuck. Here goes:
This reader's interpretation is that they could have been approaching, and then withdrawing from, consummation, rinse and repeat- all senses on full alert while delaying eventual gratification/sexual teasing-- but I have a limited imagination. Also, I want to note that I'm making a guess within the confines of the "sensory overload" in question, because what ever that entails it must fit with everything else Bucky has written.
More specifically, the sensory play has to be something that allows Jarod to realize that Parker is unmoving and still believe that Parker not moving is part of their game, something that allows him to decide he's still got the green light. We know Parker is impatient, and she could possibly become frustrated and still when Jarod delays consummation too many times, as if mutely declaring: "I'll just sleep now if you're intending to play that game all night, lowly peasantBoy" or a mute, "What? Not man enough to finish this? (she did something similar with Thomas "man enough to take the shirt"-- only aloud).
AND while she's suddenly still and thinking about Thomas, Jarod could possibly be feeling duty-bound to please the Goddess before she loses all patience and kills him-- unaware that something else entirely has begun to transpire inside her mind and that the game, whatever the game was, ended.
I think it's safe to assume that the "worst possible moment to freeze" is when his penis is entering her body.
She, justifiably, reacted to that intrusion/misunderstanding by punching him.
He reacted angrily to her reaction (held down her arms and said some hurtful things).
She pushed him off and fled (Bucky explained that the punch Parker had landed had given her the advantage that allowed her to easily push him off) (he is also naked while all of that transpires, evidently: "caught with pants down").
That's my initial interpretation (this sort of thing is not one of my strengths).
Again, that's a damn fine read, and a job well done by Bucky. I hope my stupid interpretation doesn't ruin it for you.
[Report This]Date: 11/10/20 09:42 pm
I love the deeper explorations of Lyle, the whys, his psyche, and the damning info about Sydney's knowledge. Sydney is often idolized and Lyle demonized but Sydney is just as responsible and Lyle is actually a victim.
Thank you for something I wanted to see done on television ages ago.
I want more. You're writing is so clear and you are so talented and I'm not going to harrass you at all about you know who and that selfie you probably still don't have with him. Winks winks kisses kisses xxoo
Write fast.
Author's Response:
There will be more. I think.
Thanks for the r & r, Lorraina.
Reviewer: Lorraina Signed [Report This]Date: 10/10/20 09:57 pm
OMG you are the BEST. I need more. I need it now. Please!!!
Author's Response:
Patience.
Thanks for the r&r, Kels.
Reviewer: Kels Anonymous [Report This]Date: 10/10/20 06:42 pm
You rock!
You rule!
What else is there to say except thank you? Thank you!
More please?
Author's Response:
Thanks, Jarod, for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Jarod Anonymous [Report This]Date: 10/10/20 01:14 am
Exquisite.
More please?
Reviewer: Richard McKinley Anonymous [Report This]Date: 09/10/20 01:47 am
This is stunning Mirage. Reading you evokes the feelings of watching The Pretender. The show would sprinkle some comedy in the seriousness and you do the same. MP: "the one and only" Jarod: "that you're aware of" lol. I'm always suspicious of Lyle but he makes good points and he was treated even worse than Jarod could imagine.
I don't like when people compare how good Jarod is after captivity the way Major Charles did because Jarod had a kind captor who loved him... and even with the kind captor and a nurturing relationship Jaord got weird with that house wife when he was a gigolo and he stole an kidney... and that's funny because he exposed Lyle's alledged organ theft. Jarod isn't that different as you've pointed out many times before.
I can almost understand why Lyle would do something like that as messed up as he was when he was a child and being trained by Raines.
So many thoughts when I read you. It's been a real treat for me.
Post more soon please.
Author's Response:
Hi, Markus. If it wasn't for the quote you added I would have sworn you had read someone else's scribbling and placed your review in the wrong spot. I'm glad it's been a treat for you, and I appreciate you taking the time to read and review. That said, I hope no one reads this review and develops expectations that I can't achieve. I will be updating this eventually. Again, thanks for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Markus Anonymous [Report This]Date: 09/10/20 01:15 am
Welcome back! You've been missed. This is like watching the pretender after a long day of school and work. It's like coming home. Please keep writing. Thank you for sharing your gifts with us. Congrats!
Author's Response:
Thanks, Christoph. I missed you all too.
Reviewer: Christoph Signed [Report This]Date: 09/10/20 12:28 am
OMG this is amazing and I want more already. Hurry and write more.
Reviewer: Gina Anonymous [Report This]Date: 08/10/20 07:11 pm
All the rumors about you are spot on! I'm new to the Pretender. My mum is a TP fan mostly a Michael T Weiss fan I would have to pry her from Days of our lives .. soap mums are weird like that. She's a fan of your work too and she recommended you to me knowing that I've been reluctant to watch the series... because I prefer this medium. it's just so cool that I fell in love with the characters in your fics and when I watched the tv show and was like::: yep, these are the same people. My daughter will defo be reading you too soon. I need more of this.
Reviewer: Destiny B Anonymous [Report This]Date: 08/10/20 05:02 am
That's how it's done!
Mirage You are brilliant.
Nuff said.
Reviewer: Miss Salty Bitch Anonymous
[Report This]Date: 08/10/20 03:10 am
Thank you. Thank you for updating. Thank you for saying what I've always felt is true. Lyle is also a victim of the Centre. Jarod helped Kyle because that his blood. He helped Ethan because that's his blood. He doesn't see that Lyle and Kyle and Ethan were all raised by Raines and he never had any sympathy for Lyle at all. I'm glad Parker laid out the truth the way she did but not in a cheesy way. She still doesn't trust Lyle or Jarod or anyone and I don't blame her. Jarod would still have his doubts no matter what Lyle said. But at least the truth has been said. I feel sorry for Lyle. I used to always feel so bad for him. He didn't have the love Jarod did. He didn't have Sydney. Raines just wanted people to do his evil deeds for him. Sydney wanted to mold Jarod for greatness and knew he'd have to show respect and be kind to do that. You nailed it of course. Thank you. Thank you so much.
Reviewer: Chloe Signed [Report This]Date: 08/10/20 02:37 am
Woot. I was watching the VP debate over here in the US while reaading this ...and it's like Parker and Jarod are having their own debate and MP always wipes the floor with Jarod's a$$ because she's bad ass just like Vice President Harris is.
So give us more and thanks for keeping me sane this past 400 years ... it's only been about 4 but GD it feels like 400. Then covid happen and I really thought I'd lose my sh!t. I have clung to your writing. Know that and never think you don't make a difference. You do. I'm still here. SO thank you. More please.. when you can. I know life is .. sucky and busy sometimes.
Reviewer: Melinda Signed [Report This]Date: 08/10/20 01:36 am
STOKED! I've been checking to see and finally!!! You've updated.
I love the characterizations and dialog and your transitions. Everybody says that stuff about you tho. You also made this really plausible. If Willie had been the only one to disappear in the past it wouldn't have made sense for Jarod to bring it up but because others Sydney worked with disappeared it does make complete sense. I love this. OOoouugh the tension is so much between those two. I love Lyle's reaction to Jarod grinning. Lyle was happier when Jarod didn't grin at her threats lol. Perfect. I need more.
I'd share you on twitter, too, but I'm shadow suspended or something and because of corona they are so super slow about reading my email and unsuspending. So sorry about that!!
Reviewer: Jen Signed [Report This]Date: 07/10/20 09:28 pm
How are you able to write so many high quality stories at once? I can't even put my thoughts together enough to write one story. You must sit and write for hours? It sounds so hard. I'm glad you do it. What on earth would I do without my pretender fix? I'd lose my mind.. that's what. I need my people. The pretender people are my people. Thank you as always for sharing your talents with us.
Author's Response:
Hi. I don't sit and write for hours. I'm afraid I don't have that kind of time to work with. I have minutes to devote to scribbling. The most difficult bits of writing are trying to find the time to scribble my thoughts and trying to find time to update. Ah, I feel you; I love The Pretender people, too. Thank you for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Melinda Signed [Report This]Date: 26/05/20 09:52 pm
I'm usually drawn to Jarod and Parker central fics, smut, hardcore sex and evil Jarod being a rapist because after cutting a man and taking his organ dear innocent Jarod seemed capable of violating anyone's autonomy BUT I love this. I love how Jarod is all in a rage cos of Syd being gone. I need more young lady and I needs it now. You impress the shit out of me.
Author's Response:
[Report This]Date: 15/05/20 04:36 pm
Please say you're going to add more soon even if you just updated. I really love this.
Author's Response:
Hi. I will continue to update-- not immediately, probably. Thank you for reading and reviewing- and for understanding.
Reviewer: Gwen Anonymous [Report This]Date: 14/05/20 07:52 pm
Man I'm feeling it hard for Sydney right now. Please write faster.
Author's Response:
I'm trying to set aside writing time. There's not enough time. Thanks for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Gunner Signed [Report This]Date: 13/05/20 08:45 pm
Bluebird and MK ultra. More Centre secrets and it's all so plausible. This is a really tight story and well written and the chapters are so short but that's ok. You didn't over do with the details. You know how much to give, how much detail to add. I'm so afraid for Sydney. shuddering over here. More soon?
Author's Response:
I'll update as soon as I can. Thanks for reading and reviewing, Chloe.
Reviewer: Chloe Signed [Report This]Date: 13/05/20 02:33 am
Woot woot Mirage update. I'm always totally stoked for more of your writing and I'm already craving more. ;)
Author's Response:
Thank you, Kelli, for reading and reviewing.
Reviewer: Kelli Anonymous [Report This]Date: 12/05/20 07:17 pm
I had no idea Sydney and Jacob's parents were named Greta and Jean Mikhail. Are they really or did you give them names for this story? Either way honey I love it. It's terrifying and Jarod's being his scary self too and I can't believe he didn't show Miss P that side of him more often. I want MORE!!!
Author's Response:
Hi. Yes, unless Sydney was lying to the evil monster-doctor, those are the names of his parents. We learned about Sydney's parents and some of his past in the Hazards episode (season two?) if memory serves. I'm probably wrong about the episode title. Ha. Jarod. I think he revealed the darkness to Parker often enough. You saw that homicidal glare in IOTH. He should be more careful with that. You shall have more. Thanks for reading and reviewing, Leese.
Reviewer: Leese Anonymous [Report This]Date: 12/05/20 05:14 pm
I have always expected something like this to happen to Sydney. His crimes were always whitewashed. I guess he didn't kidnap Jarod but you make me realize that he's just as guilty. I know he would have been killed by the Centre or reassigned or brainwashed but he's still guilty. I know he treated Jarod as well as he could but he still denied him love and he's still guilty. Sydney is guilty. This guy thinks Sydney is Jacob and Jacob did kidnap Jarod and knew all along and until the end when he gets killed he probably did a lot of other bad stuff to Jarod. This is scarily plausible. Even if Sydney dies in this I will like it and continue reading. I want you to know that. It's so professionally written. I mean... really. I can't even with you. I've read books that I paid for that were required reading for uni and they weren't even close to this good. You should publish something. Really.
Reviewer: Zelda Parker Anonymous [Report This]Date: 12/05/20 01:56 pm
edge of the seat story please let Sydney be ok.
Author's Response:
Of course. I love Sydney. Who doesn't love Sydney? Thank you for reading and reviewing, Stacy.
Reviewer: Stacy Anonymous
[Report This]Date: 12/05/20 04:00 am
I'm so excited for more. Exquisite as always Mirage.
Reviewer: MlleParker Signed [Report This]Date: 11/05/20 09:56 pm
Sooo I googled and what he injected Syd with is LSD and morphine. That's not a fun trip. I love the details of Syd's spin out of reality and declining condition where he's now lost the use of English and is speaking in French I took a few years of it and understand enough to understand. I'm hooked. This is the last chapter so far please add another one and hook a sister up you know.
Reviewer: Jodi Anonymous [Report This]Date: 11/05/20 12:21 am
